Becoming a Lifeforming Coach - My Transformation

Skipping Ahead

I can’t keep up! I know I am behind on my posts, so I am going to just blog about ALL of the things that have been happening since last week.

The next topic I was going to talk about was about how we learned that success and failure are NOT absolutes. Instead, any sort of insight is actually progress. Being able to view your situation from a new point of view allows you to make small discoveries and uncover new truths about yourself and whatever your goal is. I also found out that this way of framing your thoughts and understanding brings the obstacles to your goal into the light so you can tackle them once and for all! This knowledge came in handy at the Women’s Retreat I went to last weekend.

Going into the Women’s Retreat I was excited and did not know what to expect. There was no way I could have predicted what happened or the transformation that occurred. In the days leading up to the retreat, I was battling with feelings of severe loneliness and isolation. One day, I did not move from my couch all day. With feelings of this sort emotional eating is never far behind. My drug of choice is sugar, specifically ice cream and cookies. I won’t tell you how much of both I consumed in a short amount of time, but it is enough to remind me that it is a problem.

Since my husband has been gone alot, I was feeling that our marriage was really strained, and that coupled with some less that encouraging comments about life coaching from one of my small groups really set my mood at low. The retreat could not have came at a better time, my goal was to get to know a few ladies better and to recharge my batteries.Well I didn’t just recharge my batteries, I hit the RESET button.

Being in that type of environment is conducive to spiritual transformation. The whole idea behind retreats is that people come together to worship and build community. Our guest speaker was a life coach and counselor that offered us several nuggets of wisdom and insightful quotes.

There is purpose in pain.

God sees me.

God often allows what he hates to allow what he loves the most.

Total Forgiveness is a sign that I am truly broken. (Broken people have fully surrendered to God)

The only way to integrate truth and reality is community.

We have the power to change our reality by the Holy Spirit who controls our thoughts.

These quotes and bits of wisdom really started to speak to me. It doesn’t take much to get me to become emotional anyway and while some words and music drew out emotion, I give all of the credit to my quiet time and my connection with God and the holy spirit. On the second day in the morning, we talked alot about forgiveness and letting go. We were tasked to write something we needed to forgive/let go of on some stones and then go drop these stones into the water, where they could sink to the bottom or be washed away.

Truthfully I am getting ahead of myself, before we did that exercise we had some time to go out individually and seek God. During my quiet time I had every intention of reviewing some of the verses that we discussed in our session, but the holy spirit thought otherwise. In trying to find one verse, my bible kept flipping to another page, so much that I took it as a sign and read the page. The title was, “Hold Your Tongue” and it talked about how little remarks and sarcastic jabs and comments are really an outpour of the condition of your heart. I was convicted  by this because I had engaged in this type and was feeling guilty for talking to my husband in this way and even talking about him to others. Reading this lead me to another that I have come back to alot within the past week.

The mouth speaks what the heart is full of. Matthew 12:34

I’ve been praying for a heart of compassion and joy so all of my actions are from the overflow of my heart.

Keep your heart with vigilance, for from it flows the spring of life. Proverbs 4:23

From this moment, I decided that I needed to let go of my bitterness towards my husband and his job and everything along with it. That was once rock, but the Holy Spirit wasn’t done with me yet.

Knowing that I allow myself to entertain thoughts of unworthiness, the other thing she covered was Satan’s attack on your thoughts, and how you need to “quiet the committee” in your head and speak truth over all of the lies that you tell yourself. I know that speaking truth is a reoccurring theme in my blogs, so this is no different. It seems so simple to control your mind, but really when you get down to it you aren’t in control of anything.

Stay with me while I explore something. We are naturally sinners and self-focused. When we receive the trinity, the holy spirit comes alive inside of us and from it we bear the fruit of the spirit. We often call on the holy spirit to guide or speak through us during particular moments in time, however, what would it look like if you allowed the spirit to speak life and truth of the time, knowing that when you are not speaking life, you are speaking out of your sinful nature often aggravated by thoughts planted in your head by the enemy?

In essence, of all these lies I cursed myself with are a direct reflection of a thought I let linger too long in my head until it became a false truth. The only way to rid myself of these false truths, is to accept the ultimate truth and allow for God to do a work in me, guiding my every thought and every action where I no longer have control.

There is the other rock. The need for control.

Once I let go literally and figuratively of those rocks, I experienced a new sense of freedom. How freeing it is to not be in control of life, and to not have to worry or anticipate the next move. He has it figured out and all you need to do is as my mother says is, “Let Go and Let God.”

I know this is a long post, so I will attempt to wrap things up. After putting those two things in perspective for myself, I am now able to apply these truths to my marriage. Prayer is my new best friend, along with some deeper relationships with Godly women.

Without a doubt I know that my husband is a gift from God to me, and that we are meant to do great things together. By putting God first in our marriage by prayer and scripture, everything else just falls into place, funny how not trying to control things and being more in the moment has that effect.

These truths are my mantra when I start to feel “less than”. With food and wanting to control and regulate everything, I am at a point now where I’ve given up that need to control. I am staying fully aware of God’s presence around me all of the time, including when I am home by myself. When it comes to food I am asking myself what is the purpose for eating this and will it feed and nourish my body?

So I’ve let go of my strict diet and exercise regimen and my only focus at the present time is to be filled with joy and spread that job by cultivating authentic relationships with others. Sure I still go about my household responsibilities, but now it is more of a “servant heart” instead of a “slave heart.”

Praise God for everything he has done and will do, and as I will post shortly, he recently blessed me with a client for my internship that I needed. I feel this is just the tip of the iceberg of everything he has planned for me.

A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit. Proverbs 15:13

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